Job 10:6

That you seek out my iniquity,

   And probe after my sin.

Often in my life I have found myself in a situation that I have not experienced before and froze. Like a deer in the headlights, I took no action, no flight, no fight, just nothing. Taken as a whole, I hope I have learned to do something the next unexpected situation I am in. I have prayed for maturity for me and my family, and I think part of it is not freezing when in a new situation.

Iniquity was also faults, sin and crime. Seek was also search and enquire. Iniquity seemed broad enough, and seek just felt better.

Probe was also search and ferret out. Sin was also offense. Ferret out was a little much and search too generic. Offense was a little weak. One source had leave no fault of mine unpunished, but it assumed too much.

One of the things I know is that my unconscious brain works better than the one I direct. When I look at situations and say I do not want to go there, it is often because my brain knows that is where I am headed if I do not change my behavior. I have always known that what is examined is what is improved, but I struggle to examine myself and I do not improve as much as I could.

In this verse, God is examining us; seeking out our iniquity and probing after our sin, not to punish us, but to help us remove them from our lives and provide us more opportunity to glorify Him. I sin and sometimes I compound it by not admitting it and repenting. I try to push it in a hole never to be remembered. But that is one way in which they are repeated.

I am forgiven, so I should be welcome for God to point out my sin to me so that I may push it out of my life and continue to improve. That is the maturity I pray for. As well as a little learning from one situation to apply to another.

(Written 12/6, Posted 12/12, Job 214)