Job 7:16

I despise, I would not live forever,

   Let me be, my days are but a breath.

(Written 4/15 Good Friday, Posted 4/27)

It is Good Friday. We remember that Christ died on this day to pay the penalty for our sin. Last night at Maundy Thursday Service, they sang about how our sin held Christ to the cross until the job was done.  If we believe in the Bible, then nothing that ever happens will be overshadowed by this event. God bled and died for us. Not just a man, but God Himself.

I chose “I despise” over the more typical “I loathe my life”. The “I despise” carries a lot more angst than “I loathe my life”, at least for me. It is not just that Job is in a bad spot and wants to die. He sees that without God, our life is not worth having no matter how long it lasts. Among my sources, there was also “am sick or sickened” and “I’ve had enough” in place of “despise” and “loath” and “it” in place of “life” or leaving the noun out as I did. Living forever or always was clearly the second half.

“Let me alone” was suggested for “let me be”, but I preferred the ambiguity of “be”. For “are but a breath”, we had suggestions of “have no meaning” and “are vanity”. While true, I do not think this was about quality but quantity.

I had a friend that was told he had cancer yesterday. I told him it might be a call from God to get off his couch and go to church. (Did you know loath was really loathe? I did not.) To add to my woes, I have an ear infection again. I am on a new antibiotic to try am get over it. This will be the third different one in basically a month. I have heard God tell me a ton of ways the last two days that I need to put all else aside and get healthy. I have prayed about it every day, but I have not done all I need to do. Job was praying to be healed or allowed to die. My friend is praying to be healed. I am praying for something I should be able to do, but I know God can help me be successful with. Pray I can do.