Job 13:1

Behold, my eyes have seen everything,

   My ears have heard, and I comprehend it all.

My first thought on reading this again was the arrogance. This statement is only a possibility for God. I once wanted to know everything, but always knew it was not possible. My life is full of so much that I do not comprehend, it is a wonder I can ever function.

‘Everything’ was ‘all this’ except in one case where it was the negative ‘there is nothing I have not seen’. No memory of where I found everything, but…

‘Nothing my ear has not heard’ was another negative for what everyone else had, but I stuck with the basics. ‘Comprehend’ was also ‘understand’ in all but the negative case and again, not sure where I found comprehend. The negative case had ‘taken in’, which does not imply understand nor comprehend, but may be the correct word. I do actually like this version from my least favorite source. I could not use it all as I found no support for the negative anywhere else.

I’ve hit a few milestones lately amalgamating through chapter 31, blogging through chapter 12, being married 29 years, and the big kid figuring out where to go to school in the fall. Some are obviously bigger than others. The biggest may be that I have matured enough to set some goals. I haven’t set any yet, but I have agreed with myself to do so finally.

I skipped the semi-annual baseball card show here in town again. I find it odd that my main hobby’s big two events always seem like too much hassle for too little return. I have pretty much decided that my next step will be to actually go and have a booth and try to sell some of the extra I have. That might actually be fun. So far it is just the preparation that overwhelms the execution.

One of the highlights of my life has been coming to grips with how little I comprehend about what I have seen and heard. I have always known that I have a few skills and a bunch of anti-skills. Anti-skills being those things that I am so bad at that I need to avoid like the plague. The new learning has been how profound my anti-skills can impact those around me. I feel as if I valiantly put forth effort to be kind and good, and sometimes I do just the exact wrong thing. I do not know exactly how it will play out, but one of my goals will be to address my ineptitude by relying on God and being ok with doing nothing.

Written 2/7/24, Posted 4/17/24, Job 283