Job 19:11
His anger is kindled against me,
He regards me as His adversary.
When the nurse at my doctor’s office called, I asked her to call me back in a few minutes. She couldn’t handle that. Not sure why she thinks I am just going to be available. I like my doctor, but she is too far, and I like nothing else about doctors anymore.
‘Anger’ was also ‘wrath’ and ‘rage’. ‘Kindled’ was also ‘burns’, ‘fanned’, and ‘flared’. In spite of what Word says, each source has against and not towards.
‘Regards’ was also ‘treats’, ‘counts’, and ‘reckons’. ‘Adversary’ was also ‘foe’ and ‘enemy’.
God spoke into my life on Tuesday. Others might call it a coincidence, but I don’t have that mindset. Our new adult minister came into the coffee shop to meet with someone. The someone didn’t show, so I got the chance to talk to him about his new role and where I might fit in. He decided I fit in right where I was asking to be fit in for a couple years. I waited and God finally let me know the time was right.
As I compare my circumstances with Job’s at this point in the story, I find that all my problems are of my own making, and I have no need to blame anyone else. I do need to ask God to help me get past my failings and beg for mercy for the normal consequences of my poor habits. Everything I have I owe to God, and while His anger may be kindled against me, I know He is not regarding me as a foe. I have even come to the conclusion that my new ‘job’ cannot be outside a box if I am to follow God in the rest of my life too.
For this new job, we were told that our main competitor is booked solid for a year. I warned our client that we cannot afford to get booked up with projects that do not make us enough margin. He agreed, but I am not sure he heard me as his profits come from a different level than ours. I anticipate that he will be quite angry and may count me as an adversary when I tell him we are too busy to work on his low margin project. I have yet to see anything that would indicate he has a true relationship to God, so I tread carefully in hopes I can be a good witness when necessary. The flow to all this seems to elude me, so maybe you are not following, but I know that just because Job says something, does not make it true.
Written 10/30/25, Posted 1/2/26, Job 411/~1070