Job 20:12
Though wickedness be sweet in his mouth,
He conceals it under his tongue.
Almost every time I start one of these, I want to start with “I”. The idea is to glorify God and get closer to him, but since I am the one doing this, I tend to focus on me. I have had a very stress inducing morning being unable to access all my emails due to my provider transitioning to someone else, and trying to get access to my business money due to someone else not knowing what to do. I heard about internal compulsions, but I didn’t start these issues.
‘Wickedness’ was also ‘evil’. ‘Though’ was also ‘when’, ‘should’, and ‘if’. ‘Be’ was also ‘is’ or ‘grows’. ‘Mouth’ was also ‘taste’.
‘Conceals’ was ‘hides’ seven times.
After almost an hour on the phone today, I learned that I will have to make another phone call to get access to the rest of my money. I also learned that if I wait long enough, I only have to make one call more. I also learned that I may be waiting for the phone company to catch up to my changes for months. And my contractor is still without his money, and I am tempted to not be as generous with the amount after all this.
I have come to the conclusion that I need to be less sensitive to small changes to project costs. But it also means that I need to be compensated according to what I want and not what someone else wants to pay. I don’t need the money, but I don’t need the hassle either. If my client is not going to meet my ask, then he can find someone else.
I tried once to find when the phone call that got all this work started, but I failed to find the one call. I know I was at the hospital, but I couldn’t even use that to nail down a date. For today’s purposes, I am going to say that all this got my focus on September 19th after I finished my last other work the day before. So, five months of too many hours worrying about two many things. It ended today officially. Now I put the urgent behind the important and focus on listening to God to help me discern the difference. (Note that I have learned I have to make this decision every single day at least once.)
Written 2/9/26, Posted 4/1/2026, Job 470/~1070