Job 19:25

For I know that my redeemer lives,

   That on the last day He will testify upon the dust.

The Bible study that I am putting off is supposed to be about looking for references to Christ in Job. This is my key verse in this study. I one hundred percent believe this is God telling us about His Son Jesus. This section is among my favorites.

‘Redeemer’ was also ‘vindicator’ and ‘avenger’. As is normal, my least favorite source and his lack of piety came up with avenger. He also added ‘somewhere’ at the end to pile on with the lack of faith.

‘Dust’ was ‘earth’ every single time, but I changed it. ‘Stand’ was also ‘arise’ and ‘testify’. ‘On the last day’ was also ‘at the last’, ‘in the end’, ‘at last’, ‘someday’ by the same idiot, and by my favorite source ‘be the last to’.  While I do not think this is wrong, I did not switch to it.

My urologist said he would do something and then did not. I waited. When I finally was needing a response, I reached out, and he responded. Only he gave no answer, and I did not see his question for two weeks. He was then out on vacation, and his backups angered me with their ‘seemingly’ statistically defensible stance of not my problem. I got a little angry that it was my problem and not there’s.

I read Ephesians this morning, and I definitely was not without fault in this interaction. But they are supposed to be medical professionals dealing with someone who is trying to overcome a mental health issue with physical impacts. They are worried I might die from a stroke. I am worried I will do something worse if my testosterone drops too far. Would not want them to get sued for not responding when they said they would. Not sure this is the kind of information I should be putting out there.

The next three days are supposed to be about having fun. The email this morning has brought up the angst of the last week, but once I walk away from the computer, it will be over until my return. I will do my best on those issues next week and focus on what is before me. It is great to know that Jesus lives and that I will be justified by Him in the end. But for now, I must seek to have Him live in me, to love through me, and to glorify Him for doing so.

Written 1/2/26, Posted 2/7/26, Job 455/~1070