Job 21:19

You say, ‘God saves his punishment for his children.’

   Let God punish him, that he may know it.

At Bible Study this morning, we were reminded that our lives are a struggle. One participant referred to the Bible story telling us that God loved Jacob and hated Esau. The reference was to God allowing Esau to live his life without God. The question became whether someone in our lives that was struggling with sin was following the path of Jacob who struggled with God or Esau who simply walked away.

‘Saves’ was also ‘stores up’, ‘lays up’, ‘reserves’ or ‘set aside’. ‘Punishment’ was also ‘iniquity’, or ‘affliction’.

‘Punish’ was ‘paid back’, ‘reward’, and ‘recompense’. I changed this to have it make sense for me. ‘Know’ was also ‘feel’.

I had a very God involved moment yesterday. I was offended at work and determined that if I was not apologized to, I would quit. I have been determined to follow God in all this, but it was clear that yesterday could have been my last day. I was apologized to, as I assumed I would be, but it was wild to be so in the moment knowing I was following God with either outcome.

I am in a group on Instagram that is focused on Yordan Alvarez and really on his rookie cards. Over the course of time, I have stopped sharing what I have on Instagram in general and limiting it to this group. But I have also started trying to minimize that without also sharing some fundamentals about what has allowed me to pursue baseball cards at all. Today I shared that I didn’t buy any cards for twelve years while I worked through my relationship to money and stuff.

I read a meme or post on Instagram that had a theory for why people with ADD have such trouble going to sleep at night. I often have this problem as my brain races away with whatever. This theory explained my need to have a good day in order to have a good night. I did not memorize the to do’s, but I did send the list to my wife. I know my people suffer when I am not doing well, and I wanted her to understand me a little better as I learn more about myself. I struggle as God works to create the me He wants me to be in the future, but it sure would be good if I took a little more time to be disciplined in getting better rather than just wanting to.

Written 5/15/26, Posted 7/7/26, Job 505/~1070