Job 20:27

Heaven will reveal his iniquity,

   The earth will rise up against him.

I may have mentioned that my accountability question is ‘Did you pause?’ I paused this week at least once. I was talking to someone who was asking ‘they’ to do something, and the ‘they’ was me, and I was a word and a half into a not good statement when I paused and reframed my tone and my words. After I was accused of screaming (another meeting altogether), I decided maybe I need to work on my pausing even more.

‘Heaven’ was mostly ‘heavens’, but I wanted to refer to heaven and not space. ‘Reveal’ was also ‘expose’, ‘uncover’, and ‘lay bare’. ‘Iniquity’ was also ‘sin’, ‘guilt’, and ‘crime’.

Other than an odd tense, the second stitch was consistent.

I have experienced joy these last two months in giving to the church near the time of getting paid. My goal to be a good steward has led me to saving up to pay in the next calendar year to save taxes often. Now I am not able to benefit from that tax issue, and it feels good. I probably was being overly rules based when waiting.

I had an investment goal I wanted to meet this month, but my poor performance at work early in the year has resulted in some delivery delays, and that impacts when I get paid and when I can meet this goal. I have realized I am too busy working to be a diligent investor, and that means I have to find someone to turn that over to.  I have an easy option, but as I have learned many times, the easy option is often not the best one. As God is the owner of what I steward, I need to look for the best option and be ready when He reveals it.

I must admit I am tired of this chapter and the incorrect ideals of how the world should work. Probably similar to how my wife is tired of me saying how I think things should work. The one thing that is really impacting me these days is the gap between what I hope will happen with minimal effort and I know will happen with enough effort. I hope the piece of trash will make it into the trash can if I throw it, but I know it will make it if I put it there. My whole life seems to need me to take the extra step and not hope.

Written 4/2/26, Posted 5/6/26, Job 485/~1070